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Saturday, August 22, 2009

Not a happy ending story

She loved him with her all. It’s safe for her to say that.
Never once did she think of giving up. But seriously why did it happen to be this way?

Finding out he didn’t love her hurts her a lot. She didn’t know if she wasn’t in his heart at all. But knowing that now, he’s with someone else totally put her down. She was like, devastated with her own thoughts. She tried to make herself believe that he’s still with her. She doesn’t want to believe the fact that he’s with someone else because she’s afraid of the pain. Pathetic.

She gave him everything, she loved him and she cared for him and she did the best she could possibly have done for him. He even said that she was the best thing ever happened to him. But, why is it so easy for him? Yeah, not all love stories ends with happy endings.

The thing they both had was definitely the best thing that has happened to her. It’s really sad and hard for her to face the fact that this has ended. As much as she wants to fix this whole thing and just become normal people who are absolutely in love, she can’t run away from reality ….from the fact that it’s over. He’s gone. And now, he’s with someone else.

If so, she guess he’s just not the one for her.

But why does it really have to happen this way? Its like love is not a
beautiful thing anymore. It eats her up inside and throw the good part of her away and in the end she don’t even remember who she really is.

It’s scary when she has to live the next day thinking about the person she
always love and to actually know that at the back of her mind, he’s happy
with someone else while she’s still sobbing over him.

Knowing that her loved one don’t feel like what she felt toward him made her think that it’s a total waste to remember him at all. She should have moved on by this moment, but she can’t. He’s special in his own way. She never felt this way before. Yes, she had been in a relationship a couple times before, but things before were never as special as this. She loved him with all her heart and she don’t know if she’s going to meet another person that’s as special as him. She wishes she will. But she always prayed to God that He will never erase any memory of him in her head because she doesn’t want to forget the best thing ever happened in her life.

She does not ask for diamonds nor did she ask for gold. All she ever wanted was for him to love her. Sometimes when she think about all this, is it worth it? Is it really worth the tears? Worth the pain? Worth the waiting?

Her life has passed her by with nothing but a blur. She had been hurt to by her loved ones and she’s not really ready to see what’s in store for her. She doesn’t even want to know because she’s afraid that she won’t be able to bare the pain.
It’s enough. Let her deal with it before any other guy hurt her again. It’s pitiful that she can’t accept another guy as a new lover since she already fall in love with him.

The thing she doesn’t get is why she can’t let him go as easy as he did. He let her go just like that. Wouldn’t it be easy? Despite of all the things that
happened, she just can’t. Maybe it’s just her. Deep in her heart, she don’t
want to let go but do you think she have any other choices? She’s sick and
tired of crying so hard until it starts to hurt. She’s afraid to think what
will happen next. Is that really fair?

People always say, sometimes you think the person u love the most will be the one that protects you from everything. But in true fact, people you love the most always end up hurting you the most.

He had proved that right to her, just like her family did, just like her friends did, just like everyone around her that she loved did.

And all she wanted to say to him is:

Thank you for your time & love. Thank you for giving me happiness. In time, I’ll
let you go. But if I can’t, I promise that you won’t get bothered by me. May
God bless you and her. I’ve been missing you everyday since u left.

the days goes by,

wishes he was here.


Syima Syaz said...

eeerrkkk?nape ni?

Marya said...

kaw pon kuciwa ke.??
aku gtaw kaw..
laki mmg camni.xpenah nak hargi .aku paham..
ape kaw rase. sbb dlu pon aku penah rase..
ex aku ade ppuan laen..
mmg perit la doe..nak2 ppuan 2 mmg la aku kenal..

kaw saba je.
sekali kaw lepaskan org yg kaw syg..
tuhan akan bagi kebahgiaan laen utk kaw..
aku pecaye..kaw akan dapat lebih baek dr dye..
its ok weyh!

Edil (",) said...

Ermm.. life have new meaning ..

lily lyana said...

lek la kakya ktorg kn ade..
tok seh sdey2 k..


lily lyana said...

laki2 mmg gitu kakya..
saba jela..
tok seh abeskn airmate sbb laki..
kite pn bkn la dokter cnte cume mmpu ckp..

kakya byk2 la bsaba k..
kakya xepi ke dok ngn kite???????????????????

life is not a fairytale.. said...

i've been through that situation
it's hard. really
it hurts
so much
and what i can do,
watch him from far. :(

xpelah. what goes around comes around.
xkan selamanya dia hepi kan?
nanti bila dia rasa ape yg kita pernah rasa.
kita ckp:
u deserve that. :)

AiMiEiA said...

Thanks guys for the support..
terharu mak.. huhu
well lets just let karma do its job rite?

mieza said...

its ok kak ya one day die kena plak kat batang hidung sendiri baru la die tau langit tinggi ke rendah..huhu...emo la plak kn..kak ya what eva it is life must be going on...(mieza a.k.a joyah enterprise)hihieh...saje jew.....

aireen khair said...

damn dat guy!!is he da one dat u told me in acc class yersterday??

lily lyana said...

dun b sad kakya..
kite ngn mokjah kn ade..
jgn sdey2 lor..
pe yg kite ley ckp..
laki sume xley nk harap sgt..
kite ley bkwn tp jgn pcaye...
[mcm la ko 2 bgs sgt..]
-desis kakya

CiK niNiEy said...

this story is look like my situation now...but,just a little bit differ...i mish him so much ! but, i can't with him anymore..sedih sgt..but,bukan salah dia..the third party ! someone yg nak hancurkan hub.kami...really touching story..:(

ciK aYuuu said...

sabar lah elia...saya pernah rasai nya...mmg sgt sedih..lebih2 lg dia cinta pertama kita..sgt susah nak lupa..till now masih igt lg kenangan dgn itu tggal kanangan je...kdg2 dgr lagu sedih,igt balik peristiwa tu..lupakan lah mereka insan yg allah dtg kan dlm hidup kita semnetara utk beri kita pengalaman hidup..pasti allah tlah sediakan seorang insan yg syg kan kita sgt2..pasti ada..insyallah

najatulanirah said...

elia! nk share eh.. :)

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